OLD January 21, 2009

1. I should be doing homework.
2. I want to read, but I have too much homework (being on facebook doesn't count as procrastinating in my head "I'll only be on for a second.")
3. I am clueless about my future occupation.
4. Yet, I've come to the conclusion that I am destined to have ink-stained, calloused, and cramped fingertips.
5. My grandma was my favorite person in the world.
6. I dislike dumb, immature, annoying people.
7. I love huge sunglasses.
8. My little brother is awesome. <3
9. Chocolate should be a food group. haha
10. My parents are some of the smartest people I know, no matter how many times I call them stupid.
11. I wish I was a better writer.
12. I have awesome grammar and spelling.
13. I've played the piano since I was five.
14. My best friend's name is Melanie Katrina Scherr.
15. Reading is the one thing that I could do for hours, days, weeks, on end.
16. If you're going to lie, make sure you don't get caught, otherwise, you're just stupid.
17. I don't have many friends, but I am completely fine with that.
18. I have three more years of being youth deacon.
19. I think that you can believe in whatever you want to, as long as you do it passionately.
20. I secretly smell the pages of books, and love it.
21. Tadd didn't get the "fact" part about this 25 FACTS thing.
22. I'm over high school, one year was enough.
23. Kind people are the wisest.
24. I need to learn humility.
25. I'm going to be a LT at Camp Johnsonburg this summer. :)

NEW

1. I should be doing homework.

2. I'm exhausted and want to sleep.

3. I have a hint of what's going on in my future.

4. Something with reading... and traveling. Books, yeah, that's it.

5. I miss Grandma.

6. I think I have more patience now... at least I hope I do.

7. I love sweaters. That black cardigan I have, yeah, I want to wear it every day.

8. My little brother is going to be in high school next year. Woah.

9. I have a chocolate ghost from See's right next to me.

10. My parents are still smart. My dad is weirdly poetical and my mom's into this magic body stuff.

11. I still wish I was a better writer. Lists are good.

12. I'm definitely getting stupider. So grammar and spelling, not up to par.

13. I'm starting to practice piano again, I was on a hiatus.

14. I'm an actress.

15. Reading, yup, still love it. :)

16. Yeah, I'm an idiot.

17. I have basically one friend that I hang out with. Everyone else is sort of just there occasionally.

18. Actually, that whole "three year youth deacon" thing is over this January. Who knew? My dad actually.

19. Yep, still got that philosophy goin'.

20. Books smell good, yep.

21. Tadd=Creep.

22. High school, so done.

23. Kind people are the wisest.

24. Humility. Got it. Ohhhhh yeahhhhh. Let me tell ya.

25. I'm going to J-Burg in a couple weeks for a retreat!

cleaning, homework, babysitting, church, youth group, baking, Rumo.

I'm roughly right.

Self-Portrait

i am short brown hair with sort of a bit of red thrown in their, relatively straight, skin like parchment, and at times like a lobster, blue eyes like the ocean, with long, dark, thick lashes, droopy left eye, really dark circles under the eyes, some veins there as well, don't forget the spattering of freckles, don't forget pimples, ears are lopsided, crooked nose, but then again it's a straight slope, horribly chipped teeth, but straight, long tongue, thought i'd throw that in there, pink lips, pretty thin, strong neck, but not thick, that'd be a little gross, broad shoulders, flabby-ish arms, more freckles, more veins, knobby wrists, palms are the vein-iest, i like it that way, sometimes bit finger nails, fine with that, small fingers, but i'd like to think long and strong, curvy tummy, b-cup, legs=tree trunks, skinny, skinny, skinny ankles, tiny, tiny, tiny feet, with a bit of a tattoo on the right

i am jeans and a tee shirt + a sweater/cardigan, belt (sometimes), studs (most always), and some flats. my classic outfit. i love it and am constantly reinforcing it at old navy.

i could always get dressed up, don't worry, i know how. and sometimes i love that too. i like lace. i like bows. i like sequins. i like heels. i like clutches. i like diamonds. i like tule.

but i'm in high school. maybe when i'm thirty, flirty, and thriving, i'll put on a ball gown and go to a cocktail party and put on a cocktail dress and go to a ball

this has so many typos it's freakin crazy

“Geek is just another word for enthusiastic. As long as we keep loving stuff and remain unembarrassed by our enthusiasm, I think other people will feel the same way.”

— Simon Pegg in Interview Magazine, May 2007

My back is definitely killing me from that damn Etude in Style.

Nightmare

"Mister Moon came down and said,

'Don't go to sleep inside your bed!

For if you do you'll fill with dread,

From all those monsters in your head!'

Dream

"Mister Moon came down and said,

'Go to sleep inside your bed!

For if you don't you will not wed,

that Prince Charming in your head!'

If you wake-up and find a white cat, it's me.

“It is better to be roughly right than precisely wrong.”

— John Maynard Keynes

It's strange how in my mind I've loved so much. So many people. I've already met the love of my life one thousand times. I've already lost the love of my life nine hundred and ninety-nine times. We've lived happily ever after one thousand and two times. I've had foster parents. Abusive parents. Parents that are invisible. Parents that love me. Parents that I love. In my mind I've had best friends, the best. There for me, forever, loving me. I've had brothers, sisters, lovers, haters. In my mind I was persecuted during the Spanish Inquisition. In my mind I've been to the snowy streets of Moscow. I've traversed the Nile, twice. I've been to Hogwarts. For Narnia? Hell yes. I've witnessed French bureaucrats being smuggled across the Channel to safety during the Revolution. I was at the Battle of Ettinor, I saved it, not that I'd expect you to know what I'm talking about. I've built a cathedral, I've burnt it down. I've been stranded on islands more times than I can count. In my mind I've been to the edge of the world, and back.

In my mind.

In reality it's true that I love my parents, I love my brother, I love my friends.

But my mind is lying to me about almost everything I've seen of value.

And I'm totally fine with that.

There I go, lying again. The truth is it scares me to death. I've seen it. I've seen love, I've seen loss, I've seen adventure. It was beautiful.

Now I need to feel it, taste it, hear it, smell it. Live it.

I read notes.

I read palms.

I read letters.

I read faces.

I read stars.

I read colors.

I feel like Liesel and I have something in common.

Homework anyone? :P

"Ink stained sheets and starry skies,

Swollen fingers and bruising eyes.

Oh God, Oh man, Oh no, Another triangle sess, and you know what that means, Pokémon.

Finally he get's on the back of Hockalugi. That took a while. Idiot. Stupid. Retard.

I could definitely use some pants. Did that really just happen?

I'd have to say Slowking is my man. Really, I think I might be in love.

Oh we've been quite scrupulous, but being good guys is quite dupulous.

Is dupulous even a word?

Whatever. All I know is that Clash rhymes with Ash, and the only kid named Ash in the entire world, is Ash Ketchum. So, he is, of course, the chosen one.

But actually I think I'm going to keep playing this flute.

Because Lugia has telepathy. Well, he talks without moving his mouth, and it's sort of awesome.

I'm also pretty sure that Lugia is guido.

It's okay if you don't understand any of this.

One of these days I'm going to count and organize my books. I'm thinking around my birthday when I'll hopefully be getting a book stamp... :) 

It takes way too long to find Howl's Moving Castle and Sunwing and Midnight for Charlie Bones for my brother's outside reading. 

On a more exciting note, I found about twenty books that I thought were in my parent's room, but weren't. They were in my brother's room. Woah. Exciting. Needless to say now they're on my newly established second bookshelf! Yes, crazy sweet, I know. I transferred the books on my floor, the books doubling up on my other bookshelf, and the books under the flower vase on my table to this. So now I have all that space for new books! Oh geez, Barnes and Noble/Amazon need to watch out. 

ubiuergurbguirhgnov8eweghnovr it's beautifulllllllllllllllllllllllllll:D

Snow White

A Little Princess

Chihiro: I finally get a bouquet and it's a good-bye present. That's depressing.

“I read,” I say. “I study and read. I bet I’ve read everything you read. Don’t think I haven’t. I consume libraries. I wear out spines and ROM-drives. I do things like get in a taxi and say, “The library, and step on it.” My instincts concerning syntax and mechanics are better than your own, I can tell, with all due respect. But it transcends the mechanics. I’m not a machine. I feel and believe. I have opinions. Some of them are interesting. I could, if you’d let me, talk and talk.”

— David Foster Wallace (Infinite Jest)

Awards from Pundit! Thanks! :)

“Sometimes I can hear my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I’m not living.”

— from Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer 

25 Things

1. I am currently reading People of the Book.  Mostly because this awesome looking chick at Costco told me it was really good. 

2. School is tomorrow and my schedule is basically perfect except for no sisters and I have to run a marathon to get to class. 

3. I also have piano tomorrow. Uh. I haven't practiced in a really, really long time. I suck.

4. I'm thinking about buying the Pride & Prejudice piano music because I think I might actually want to play that, but then I think it's gonna be way too hard.

5. I absolutely love the Kesners.

6. I am in dire need of sticky tack and Mederma (which gets rid of scars, cause there's one by my tattoo and it's ruining the nicey niceness of it).

7. The Tenth Kingdom DVD is on the counter at Blockbuster and when I saw it I almost started crying I was laughing so hard.  I didn't think other people even knew about it.

8. I'm thinking about organizing my bookshelf... but I probably won't.

9. I need my dad to hang up my "Jean's Quilt Corner Sign" so that I can move in another bookshelf.

10. I am ridiculously excited for Mel's birthday considering it isn't mine and I have only a slight idea of what we're doing for it.

11. I'm really afraid to wear these new heels to school, but they're really cute. So I don't know what to do.

12. Should I join NHS this year? 

13. I'm still clueless about my future occupation.

14. I miss camp and KyKy a lot. 

15. So much has changed since I did this the first time, and it was so much easier that time too. So much more general. But I already said all those general things and so now it's a bit more... "here and now".

16. Pride & Prejudice is really overdue, but the guy at Blockbuster loves us so maybe he'll let it slide.

17. I think that soon I'm going to flip through my old National Geographics and cut out anything interesting. 

18. I love Caity's new hair!

19. I'm wondering if stealing the dilapidated books is going to be a possibility this year... I need to scope out Ms. Jessop.

20. I just got my second ear piercing on Sunday. I'm excited.

21. My appointed bedtime is in exactly one minute from when I'm typing this and I'm going to definitely be surpassing it.

22. The new latte stuff we got is amazing. I now have a breakfast routine, unlike last year.

23. Nicole is in five of my classes, including lunch, so that's good. 

24. I really need to remember to put on my rings tomorrow morning, I keep forgetting!

25. My scarves all smell like incense now because they're on the rocking chair next to my jewelry thingy which is where I burn it. I like it. 

School tomorrow.  I'm dreading piano tomorrow way more. Oh geez.

FOUND MY PHONE

Charging it now, communication will be back up momentarily.

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) 

One of the worst feelings in the world is having to doubt something you thought was unquestionable.

See this book stamp? Yeah. I want it customized with my name for my b-day. I told Kay about it so I think it's covered.

I thought this was sorta cute

Um, Like I said, random.

Dear Mom,

Haha

Howl's Moving Castle

Creepy, but strangely beautiful.

This totally random series of posts that are coming at you, yeah, they're caused by Tadd.

But I picked 'em.

The Arabian Nights:

Accomplished

I need to read me some Vonnegut.

LOST!

My phone is gone. And it doesn't really bother me except for the fact that I know it's in my house somewhere, right under my nose... Ugh. 

“The cure for boredom is curiosity. There is no cure for curiosity.”

— Ellen Parr