Philosophy 101

A rock is a rock is a rock.

The qualities of a rock: mineral, gray, purple, blue, natural, hard, heavy.

A rock is an obstacle is an anchor is a burden.

But really I think this rock is actually... just a rock.

Frankenstein: Bad Parenting

Nurturing care from parents is critical for a child's development. If a child is subjected to neglect or abuse at a young age, they will most likely have a different view of the world than children who benefited from loving parents. Mary Shelley's Frankenstein is a perfect example of bad parenting. The creature lacks a parental figure from the beginning. Frankenstein, in fear and disgust of what he created, abandons the creature; leaving him to fend for himself. "Unable to endure the aspect of the being I had created, I rushed out of the room" (pg. 71), spoken by Dr. Frankenstein himself when he flees his creation, who could be considered like a newborn, although in a larger-than-life body. The creature finds Frankenstein in his room sleeping. He grins, as children do when recognizing their parent, and reaches out to the Doctor. Frankenstein awakens and is terrified, thinking the creature wants to hurt him, and again hastens away. Alone and confused, the creature wanders off.

The creature's abandonment reminds me of a little Ugandan girl named Mirembe. Her parents had deserted her because she is stricken with sickle-cell anemia. Alone in a dirty shack, Mirembe was much like the creature in the woods. Luckily, being an adorable child, Mirembe was rescued and adopted; the creature, a conglomeration of different corpses, was no where near that fortunate. He was forced to teach himself how to eat and keep warm, how to talk and read, things we all take for granted because our parents provide it for us.

Eventually the creature comes into contact with Frankenstein again and practically begs for a scrap of happiness, that is, a female creation like himself that he can love. Frankenstein almost yields, saying "His tale and the feeling he now expressed proved him to be a creature of fine sensations, and did I not as his master owe him all the portion of happiness that it was in my power to bestow?" (pg. 178) Frankenstein recognizes that he has a responsibility to make the creature happy, but does not because he firmly believes the creature to be forever a horrific being.

Abandoned, betrayed, and attacked time and time again, the monster turns into a bitter murderer, displaying how bad parenting can deeply affect someone's life. Marge Piercy states in A Work of Artifice that, "With living creatures one must being very early". No matter how grotesque the creature is he is still a living thing, and in the beginning he had no one to take care of him, turning him into the infamous Frankenstein's monster.

This entire weekend is officially devoted to Science Fair.

Holbein's

Hawt.

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Science Fair= Procrastination to the upmost degree.

"You're in love. Don't deny it. You've been sighing all day." Witch of the Wastes

I think Dr. Frankenstein is an asshole. I like the creature better.

Awww, hehehe

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Asher Book, like, if we got married, my last name would be Book. I'm okay with that.

What the hell makes me special? Because for the life of me I can't figure it out.

Headache? Yes.

Top Ten Prospective Colleges

1. Brown University

2. Bard College

Bates College

Cornell University

College of the Atlantic

Hampshire College

Wesleyan University

Skidmore College

Tufts University

University of Pennsylvania

To Do List

Short-term:

1. Frankenstein

2. Science Fair

a. Bibliography

b. Outline

3. Midterms

4. Laundry

5. Dishes

Long-term:

1. SAT's

2. SAT Subject Tests

3. Guidance for Senior Schedule

4. College

Stress Level= 8/10

Some little awesome things.

The little left turn arrow!!!! Woo!

The kentucky tuck= My best friend!

The perfect soundtrack for meandering around town in your van.

When you can have a life AND get all your colossal amounts of homework done because your friends are that cool.

I can see R-rated movies.

I'm still excited.

I need to read The Idiot so I don't feel like one.

waiting for that exception.

i've always lived like this, keeping a comfortable distance
and up until now i had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
because none of it was ever worth the risk

The Thunder, Perfect Mind

I was sent forth from the power,

and I have come to those who reflect upon me,

and I have been found among those who seek after me.

Look upon me, you who reflect upon me,

and you hearers, hear me.

You who are waiting for me, take me to yourselves.

And do not banish me from your sight.

And do not make your voice hate me, nor your hearing.

Do not be ignorant of me anywhere or any time. Be on your guard!

Do not be ignorant of me.

For I am the first and the last.

I am the honored one and the scorned one.

I am the whore and the holy one.

I am the wife and the virgin.

I am and the daughter.

I am the members of my mother.

I am the barren one

and many are her sons.

I am she whose wedding is great,

and I have not taken a husband.

I am the midwife and she who does not bear.

I am the solace of my labor pains.

I am the bride and the bridegroom,

and it is my husband who begot me.

I am the mother of my father

and the sister of my husband

and he is my offspring.

I am the slave of him who prepared me.

I am the ruler of my offspring.

But he is the one who begot me before the time on a birthday.

And he is my offspring in (due) time,

and my power is from him.

I am the staff of his power in his youth,

and he is the rod of my old age.

And whatever he wills happens to me.

I am the silence that is incomprehensible

and the idea whose remembrance is frequent.

I am the voice whose sound is manifold

and the word whose appearance is multiple.

I am the utterance of my name.

Why, you who hate me, do you love me,

and hate those who love me?

You who deny me, confess me,

and you who confess me, deny me.

You who tell the truth about me, lie about me,

and you who have lied about me, tell the truth about me.

You who know me, be ignorant of me,

and those who have not known me, let them know me.

For I am knowledge and ignorance.

I am shame and boldness.

I am shameless; I am ashamed.

I am strength and I am fear.

I am war and peace.

Give heed to me.

I am the one who is disgraced and the great one.

Give heed to my poverty and my wealth.

Do not be arrogant to me when I am cast out upon the earth,

and you will find me in those that are to come.

And do not look upon me on the dung-heap

nor go and leave me cast out,

and you will find me in the kingdoms.

And do not look upon me when I am cast out among those who

are disgraced and in the least places,

nor laugh at me.

And do not cast me out among those who are slain in violence.

But I, I am compassionate and I am cruel.

Be on your guard!

Do not hate my obedience

and do not love my self-control.

In my weakness, do not forsake me,

and do not be afraid of my power.

For why do you despise my fear

and curse my pride?

But I am she who exists in all fears

and strength in trembling.

I am she who is weak,

and I am well in a pleasant place.

I am senseless and I am wise.

Why have you hated me in your counsels?

For I shall be silent among those who are silent,

and I shall appear and speak,

Why then have you hated me, you Greeks?

Because I am a barbarian among the barbarians?

For I am the wisdom of the Greeks

and the knowledge of the barbarians.

I am the judgement of the Greeks and of the barbarians.

I am the one whose image is great in Egypt

and the one who has no image among the barbarians.

I am the one who has been hated everywhere

and who has been loved everywhere.

I am the one whom they call Life,

and you have called Death.

I am the one whom they call Law,

and you have called Lawlessness.

I am the one whom you have pursued,

and I am the one whom you have seized.

I am the one whom you have scattered,

and you have gathered me together.

I am the one before whom you have been ashamed,

and you have been shameless to me.

I am she who does not keep festival,

and I am she whose festivals are many.

I, I am godless,

and I am the one whose God is great.

I am the one whom you have reflected upon,

and you have scorned me.

I am unlearned,

and they learn from me.

I am the one that you have despised,

and you reflect upon me.

I am the one whom you have hidden from,

and you appear to me.

But whenever you hide yourselves,

I myself will appear.

For whenever you appear,

I myself will hide from you.

Those who have [...] to it [...] senselessly [...].

Take me [... understanding] from grief.

and take me to yourselves from understanding and grief.

And take me to yourselves from places that are ugly and in ruin,

and rob from those which are good even though in ugliness.

Out of shame, take me to yourselves shamelessly;

and out of shamelessness and shame,

upbraid my members in yourselves.

And come forward to me, you who know me

and you who know my members,

and establish the great ones among the small first creatures.

Come forward to childhood,

and do not despise it because it is small and it is little.

And do not turn away greatnesses in some parts from the smallnesses,

for the smallnesses are known from the greatnesses.

Why do you curse me and honor me?

You have wounded and you have had mercy.

Do not separate me from the first ones whom you have known.

And do not cast anyone out nor turn anyone away

[...] turn you away and [... know] him not.

[...].

What is mine [...].

I know the first ones and those after them know me.

But I am the mind of [...] and the rest of [...].

I am the knowledge of my inquiry,

and the finding of those who seek after me,

and the command of those who ask of me,

and the power of the powers in my knowledge

of the angels, who have been sent at my word,

and of gods in their seasons by my counsel,

and of spirits of every man who exists with me,

and of women who dwell within me.

I am the one who is honored, and who is praised,

and who is despised scornfully.

I am peace,

and war has come because of me.

And I am an alien and a citizen.

I am the substance and the one who has no substance.

Those who are without association with me are ignorant of me,

and those who are in my substance are the ones who know me.

Those who are close to me have been ignorant of me,

and those who are far away from me are the ones who have known me.

On the day when I am close to you, you are far away from me,

and on the day when I am far away from you, I am close to you.

[I am ...] within.

[I am ...] of the natures.

I am [...] of the creation of the spirits.

[...] request of the souls.

I am control and the uncontrollable.

I am the union and the dissolution.

I am the abiding and I am the dissolution.

I am the one below,

and they come up to me.

I am the judgment and the acquittal.

I, I am sinless,

and the root of sin derives from me.

I am lust in (outward) appearance,

and interior self-control exists within me.

I am the hearing which is attainable to everyone

and the speech which cannot be grasped.

I am a mute who does not speak,

and great is my multitude of words.

Hear me in gentleness, and learn of me in roughness.

I am she who cries out,

and I am cast forth upon the face of the earth.

I prepare the bread and my mind within.

I am the knowledge of my name.

I am the one who cries out,

and I listen.

I appear and [...] walk in [...] seal of my [...].

I am [...] the defense [...].

I am the one who is called Truth

and iniquity [...].

You honor me [...] and you whisper against me.

You who are vanquished, judge them (who vanquish you)

before they give judgment against you,

because the judge and partiality exist in you.

If you are condemned by this one, who will acquit you?

Or, if you are acquitted by him, who will be able to detain you?

For what is inside of you is what is outside of you,

and the one who fashions you on the outside

is the one who shaped the inside of you.

And what you see outside of you, you see inside of you;

it is visible and it is your garment.

Hear me, you hearers

and learn of my words, you who know me.

I am the hearing that is attainable to everything;

I am the speech that cannot be grasped.

I am the name of the sound

and the sound of the name.

I am the sign of the letter

and the designation of the division.

And I [...].

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[...] light [...].

[...] hearers [...] to you

[...] the great power.

And [...] will not move the name.

[...] to the one who created me.

And I will speak his name.

Look then at his words

and all the writings which have been completed.

Give heed then, you hearers

and you also, the angels and those who have been sent,

and you spirits who have arisen from the dead.

For I am the one who alone exists,

and I have no one who will judge me.

For many are the pleasant forms which exist in numerous sins,

and incontinencies,

and disgraceful passions,

and fleeting pleasures,

which (men) embrace until they become sober

and go up to their resting place.

And they will find me there,

and they will live,

and they will not die again.

Translated by George W. MacRae

Nag Hammadi Library (Coptic Version)

I feel like it's Friday night which is severely affecting my ability to do homework.

Tomorrow is gonna suck.