I Like

Chocolate/Rings/Belts/Books/Chinese Fortune Sticks/Incense/Maps/Wawa Coffee/Bike Rides on Roads/Organized Mess/Movies/Magic/Quilts/Shells/Stained Glass/Eccentricity in People/Anime/Batman/Cute Boys/Tag/Trains/Bikes/Cars/Airplanes/Travel! Duh/Red Nail Polish/Tattoos/Art/Music/Pianos/Panda Bears/Home Made Baked Goods/Con Queso/Silence/Thunderstorms/Transformers/Sleep/Late Night Fridays with Caity/Applebee's/Eating Good Food/Nathaniel (Sometimes)/Learning/Huge Sunglasses/Laughing/Flowers/Lotion/Big Earrings/Jeans/Tee Shirts/Becca's Baby/The OC/Youth Group/World Religions/Freckles/My Eyes/Culture/Being Happy!/Globes/Concerts/Dracula/Narnia/Cigars/My Camera/Lauren Dabal's Pictures/The Feeling That You Get When You Go Somewhere New/Dr. Pepper/Say Anything/My Bed/Fire/Love Stories/Any Stories/Luigi's Mansion/Black Cherry Smirnoff/Harry Potter/Faint Sun Burn/Garden Stores/Manning's Ice Cream/Eyelashes/Sharpies/The Feeling That You Get When You're Driving Home Late At Night From The Movies or Whatever and You Just Want to Keep Driving In The Opposite Direction/Empty Bottles/Baby Powder/Trees/Pictures/The Smell of My Chemistry Classroom/Getting Dressed Up/Black Cats/Shopping/Sushi/Japan/Bagels/Ginger Burkhart/Soft Skin/Being Weird/Josh Stuppi?/Being Way Less Judgmental Than Tadd Seems to Think/A Certain Orange Couch/Love Shack/Pike Place Market/Lyrical/My New Dry Erase Calendar/Eating Dinner with My Family/Snow Days/Milk Shakes/Adventure/Blockbuster

On the Defensive

The walls are up again. And I'm okay with that. 

I'm afraid of so many things, but at least I know what they are now. 

I'm cordial. I'm going to do what I want. And what everyone else wants. I'm cordial.

Don't Worry

I'm strangely happier than I've been in a while.

Withdrawn

I'm insane. Out of my mind, but mostly in it.

Broken

I think I heard something snap inside. Something's wrong with me. 

I don't think anyone can fix it, because no one's around. 

It's up to me.

Over

So this year changed everything. There's a reason I called this blog a Change of Pace. Because everything is different, and I hate it. It was probably the hardest year I've been through yet. School was crazy, I got the most work I've ever gotten. I was pushed to my limit. Two of my friends fell in love, with each other, at least they think. But no one really actually knows. I became a best friend, and then became not a best friend. I got a tattoo. I learned how to look cute, and that usually I don't care about looking cute (haha). I learned what makes me tick. I learned what I need to change about myself. That's probably the longest, saddest list of them all. 

That's why I think this summer will change everything. Probably not for the better, but here's hoping. 

Summer Goals!

In no particular order of importance:

1. Get in shape.

a. Via bike (mostly).

2. Read all the books on my list (plus some).

3. Go to the beach at least five times.

a. At least attempt to get a bit tan...

4. Learn how to drive (way better).

5. Start collecting bumper stickers.

6. Sew up a few clothing items.

7. Say yes.